Thursday, October 7, 2010

Two Years

I am amazed at how time can both simultaneously fly and crawl... how it feels like such a short time ago that I met Isaac, snuggled him, kissed his little face, and told him over and over how much I love him and how proud I am of him. Yet at the same time, it feels like forever since I last saw him. There is so much that I very clearly remember about this day two years go; and yet other details are starting to become fuzzy, despite my best effort to remember everything so sharply. Has it really been two years? Two whole years?

Dear Isaac,

I want you to know that I have not stopped thinking about you. While my head knows that you are healthy and whole, delighting in the fullness of God's glory, my heart still aches for you and longs for you to be here with us. I wish that you could be here to see your little sister and the amazingly beautiful, sweet, and fun little girl she continues to become. I wish that you were here to go to the pumpkin patch with us on Saturday, for me to pull you around in a wagon, to go down the slide on the playground. I wish we would be throwing a birthday party for you; instead, today we'll visit the cemetery and go on a hike to a place that was very special to me and daddy while you were still in my tummy. I miss you so much, Isaac. You are so precious to me and your absence is still very profound.

You have made such a difference in my life and in the lives of so many other people. You have made the world better because you were here. I am so proud of you. I am so proud to be your mommy. I love you so, so much, Isaac. I miss you...

Love,
Mommy

Click here to view the slideshow of Isaac's birthday.

34 comments:

KAL071203 said...

Thinking of you today

Anne said...

May your day be filled with His beauty and His peace as you celebrate your precious son.

raechel said...

I'm praying you will feel God's love and comfort today as you and your family celebrate Isaac. Happy Birthday sweet boy!

Lark said...

Praying for comfort and peace today as you celebrate your beautiful son.

KK said...

Thinking of you and your beautiful family today. hugs & Prayers!

Laura said...

Praying for you today....asking God to comfort in a tender way.

Sending love,
Laura

Jessica said...

happy birthday, sweet isaac! praying for you and spencer today, stacy. (((hugs)))

Sarah said...

Happy birthday Issac! Thinking and praying for your family today Stacy

Liz and Will Timmerman said...

Remembering Isaac today, and his sweet face. Thinking about you and Spencer and wishing you peace today.
The Timmermans

Carly said...

Happy Birthday Isaac...you are all in our thoughts and prayers today. Love, Carly

Nat said...

I hope that time has started to heal your pain. Happy Birthday Sweet boy. lots of thoughts and prayers today.

StacyandChad said...

Praying you feel the loving arms of our Heavenly Father today!

Brooke said...

Happy birthday baby Isaac.

Myn and Lu said...

Hi. We were on the same bump board for a while, and I followed your story with sweet Issac since almost the beginning. I just recently got the link to your blog again and wanted you to know I am thinking of you and praying for you. My heart breaks for you, but at the same time, I am encouraged and inspired by your faith and strength. God bless you and your family.

Erika said...

stacy, i am having a hard time believing it's been two years, too. i remember the night before isaac was born, devon and i were out at coffee and we were talking about isaac and how he would be born the next day...i can't believe it's been two years. he has impacted so many lives in a positive way. sending you lots of hugs and love on his second birthday. ((((hugs)))

Molly said...

Thinking of Isaac and how precious he was to you and so many.

His story has changed so many lives. Thank you for continuing to share him with us.

Happy birthday, angel.

Nathan, Laurie, Elizabeth & Emily said...

Praying for you and your family today!

jacks grandmom said...

I am thinking and praying for all of you today- and especially sweet, little Isaac.

Christie, Jeff and Kennedy said...

Happy birthday dear Isaac. I never met you, but I think of you often.
Stacy, Spencer and Eliana, you are in my thoughts today.

Randi094 said...

May God bless you today. You are an amazing mom. Thinking of you and your family today.

asplashofsunshine said...

Happy Birthday Isaac! I may have never had the opportunity to know you or your sweet family, but you have been in my thoughts ALL day today. Thank you for making my heart a bit bigger and for making me a better mommy without even knowing it. Happy birthday! p.s. Let mommy know that the picture she chose for today is absolutely precious. I think she already knows that though. :)

Sonya said...

praying for you and Spencer today.

Michelle said...

Thinking of all of you today.

katie said...

Isaac and your whole family have been on my mind all day. Praying you can enjoy remembering your sweet boy even through the pain. Happy Birthday Isaac!

Kelly @ Sufficient Grace Ministries said...

Love and prayers for you, always...Happy Birthday, sweet Isaac!

Julie said...

Thinking of you...and remembering Isaac...always.

Desiree said...

Thinking of your family today. I remember when Isaac was born. He was one of the most beautiful babies I had ever seen. He has touched my life and heart as well as so many others.

jmh said...

Happy 2nd Birthday, Isaac!! Your mom thinks about you every day and a LOT of people think of you and are proud of you often as well. Your sweet life has inspired so many!
xoxo

AngelsAmid said...

Stacy-
Happy Birthday in Heaven to Isaac. We will never forget him. Sending our love & prayers today.

Alicia said...

Happy Birthday sweet Isaac.

Stephanie Christine Photography said...

Thinking of you all... Happy 2nd Birthday sweet baby Isaac.

Leslie Craven said...

Happy Birthday Isaac!
Your mom is such an amazing woman of strength & faith. My faith has grown through her witness.

Holly said...

I know I'm a few days late. Seems that's just how it is for me lately.

Happy Birthday Isaac ♥

Brooke said...

Oh Stacy....I know that next year in september...and every year after...will always be hard. Thanks for sharing your journey. Iknow you have joy in your life, but Isaac will always be a huge part of your journey in this life.