Friday, October 7, 2011

Happy 3rd Birthday Isaac

It's not every day anymore that I think about the fact that we buried our son. Don't misunderstand... it's not that we don't think about him. We do. Daily. In one way or another, Isaac is mentioned in our home daily... often in the context of explaining to Eliana that soon she will have two brothers. It is so sweet to me that she recognizes Isaac's pictures, and when we remind her that Isaac is in Heaven, she replies, "With Jesus." What a gift that she knows that. Three years of after losing Isaac, most of our conversations surrounding him are filled with great joy and wonder as we marvel at the fact that Eliana seems to understand so much about who Isaac is in the tapestry of our family.
Yet every October 7th, the vivid reality of what we have experienced, and lost, resurfaces. The fact that we did bury our son; the fact that we did plan his funeral; the fact that the "natural" order of things feels completely altered and out of whack.
In the midst of it though, God has replaced our unanswered questions with a great sense of peace. And today, we celebrated Isaac's life as a family in ways that brought us great joy. This morning Spencer and I each wrote Isaac a letter and Eliana drew him a picture. We picked up some balloons and flowers (and Eliana wanted him to have a little pumpkin!) on our way to the cemetery. Once there, we let Ellie put the pumpkin down at Isaac's special place. We attached our letters and Eliana's picture to a few balloons and let them go. Eliana was fascinated by letting the balloons go "up in the sky for I-Kiss (Isaac)." It brought smiles to our faces to see her so interested in celebrating her big brother. Of course there were moments of tears... staring at your son's grave instead of his sweet face is never easy. But we know that we have been blessed by our son's sweet life, though way to short, and that his place in our family is not only something known to Spencer and I, but is something that Eliana is really seeming to understand as well. I am so thankful for that.
Sweet Isaac,

We miss you so much; but we know that you are in the most perfect of places. You have not been forgotten; your life and legacy continue to touch others... most especially your little sister. Please know that we think of you so often, and love you so much. I am so proud of you. Happy third birthday, sweet boy.

Love,

Mommy


13 comments:

Nika M. said...

Happy Birthday Isaac.

Sending you hugs and prayers.

mommyof6(1inheaven) said...

Happy Birthday Sweet Isaac. Through your short life I met your Mommy. Through your life, I learned what true love looks like from 2 parents who loved you and still love you. I learned that God doesn't always answer prayers the way we want, but he will never leave us. God will never start stuff in our lives, just to let us do it alone.

God loves your parents so much. That is why he made them your Parents. He knew they would be perfect for you!

I know they can't wait to see you again soon.

Stacy,

I am praying for you today. I know this day is hard but you give me hope for our Son's 1st Birthday next year. I love that your sweet little girl feels Isaac with her and knows Isaac in her heart!

Kristin said...

Happy Birthday Isaac. I watched the slideshow you posted on FB this morning...and it is so beautiful and I am grateful to have known Isaac through you. Prayers for you today!

whippetmom said...

Happy Birthday sweet Isaac. Praying for your family on this day!

Maria said...

Happy Birthday little Issac

hugs to your family

xxxxx

Mrs. Cahill's Room 110 said...

Happy Birthday Isaac.

thetalbotts said...

Happy birthday to your precious Isaac. Praying your family can grieve, yet still experience joy & peace through another celebration without the birthday boy.

Shelley

Vivian said...

Happy Birthday Isaac.
Isaac your family is still getting blessings for the heavenly father!
Yes, Isaac is blessed to be in the hands of our heavenly father!

Daddy's Dream ~Mommy's Miracle said...

Happy Birthday Isaac. Beautiful post!

Liz and Will Timmerman said...

Happy Birthday Isaac! Stacy, I'm so happy to hear how Isaac's little sister can join in on his birthday celebrations now. That is truly a blessing. Peace and joy as you celebrate your son's life.

Sarah said...

Happy Birthday, Isaac.... Sending lots of love to Mom and Dad.

Miche said...

Happy Birthday Sweet Isaac! You have touched so many lives in so many ways.

Carly said...

Happy Birthday sweet Isaac. Oh Ellie, she brings me to tears. I love how much she gave to the celebration this year, amazing.