Thursday, February 25, 2010

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A few nights ago I was explaining to someone that continuing to move forward after losing a child can sometimes be difficult. In response, this person asked, "Well, what do you feel like it is you're moving away from as you move forward?"

After giving it some thought, it's not so much that I feel as though I am moving away from Isaac... it's the fact that he's not here to move forward with us. I wish so much he could be here to also welcome his baby sister.

So with that, today would you please pray for both my and Spencer's hearts as we approach March 4th... balancing such great joy and anticipation in getting ready to meet Eliana, with the reality that we are coming to yet another milestone that we aren't able to share with our son, but deeply wish that we could. Please pray that God would allow us the space and the grace to manage these emotions, to bear with one another in love as we do, and that He would just be especially near to us in the missing.

17 comments:

Trennia said...

(((HUGS)))
and
Prayers

Beckycain6 said...

You were in my prayers this morning. I was reading in Ephesians 6. That may help you feel some peace too..

Praying,
Becky

The Knight Family said...

Prayed for you this morning! :)

~Cindy

Anonymous said...

I will never forget the words of an author who immigrated from Germany as a child at the end of WW2. He said 'everything in life is constantly changing, nothing stands still'. A very simple expression, but carries deep meaning for everyone, in any situation. One can either accept the fact of change and continue to move forward, bringing forth a positive heart and mind, or reject change by constantly wishing things could be different and thereby continuing to feel sorrow and pain. I know it is a very hard balance to achieve, but I have found focusing on the positive aspects of difficult situations and giving God the negative to 'wisk away' has been very helpful in my outlook and mental health. I know you will feel a thousand times blessed when your long awaited daughter arrives. Praying for your happiness!!

Melanie

Krista said...

My thoughts are with you through this time of blessings and difficulty. May God grant you peace in love in your past, present and future.

Ashly said...

praying for you, each day & often!

The Fabulous Ms. Beth said...

hugs to you mama --
The first 2 weeks after my rainbow Katie came were hard because I knew Charlie wasn't here in the physical sense to share it with us. Although we were parents to an angel, we were "new parents" to a child who got to come home with us. We rejoiced that we got to bring Katie home but grieved all over again as we realized how sad it was that we never got to do the same for Charlie.

belle said...

you hit the nail on the head!!!! perfect words. praying for your heart and the roller coaster of emotions you're riding.

(((hugs)))

Anonymous said...

I am praying for you both that you can feel all the happiness of Eliana while still holding Isaac close to your hearts.

mommara said...

I don't know how you do it. You are such a strong momma. I am just praying the Lord protects you guys in this wonderful and heartbreaking and exciting day all at once. You will be in so many of our thoughts and prayers as you meet your little girl. Hugs.

Laura said...

Thinking about you this morning and praying. One breath at a time...so proud of you and your sweet family.

Sending love!

SUSI said...

Hi Stacy -

you and Spencer are in my thoughts and prayers especially when it comes it finding the balance between pure joy of meeting Eliana and the missing and longing for Isaac. It is so hard to balance and it really sunk in when we met Max.

Hugs,
Susi

Kelly @ Sufficient Grace Ministries said...

Praying for you, every step of the way...

Michal Ann said...

I hope this observation is helpful. Most parents aren't sure how to balance their intense love of their firstborn with the concerns of greeting #2. Just in case this is worth thinking about, I'm hoping you won't feel that you're being "disloyal" to Isaac's memory when you fall madly in love with Eliana. Just a thought.

God is the only One who knows the "script" for He alone is the Author and Finisher of this story...the same, yesterday, today and forever. God is love.

"Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of [our] faith..." Hebrews 12:2

"Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever." Heb. 13:8

"God is love!" I John 4:16

Peppermint Patty said...

Since God knows us before we are ever conceived in our mother's wombs, I have to believe that Isaac has already met his little sister, soon to be coming to this Earth.

May God bless your family with hope, peace and happiness and LOTS OF LOVE!!

Anonymous said...

Have you thought about the fact that without Isaac's death, you probably wouldn't be having Eliana? I know I'm stretching it, but maybe, just maybe she is HIS (and Isaac's) gift to you.

Corie said...

Praying for you and for the Lord to give you joy and peace as you great your daughter and miss your son.