Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Thirteen

Some people say 13 is a lucky number, some say it's unlucky. It had been my dad's number on his softball team, and the number on my jersery for a few soccer seasons.

Now, it's the time we have left with Isaac. If I were to write out all the things that this fact stirs up within me, I am not sure it would sound a whole lot different than my post entitled 20 Days... except in some ways worse. The closer October 7th gets, the harder my days are becoming.

So instead, I decided to include 13 ways for you to pray for us...

1. For a miracle... we know that it's not too late, and that God had the power to heal Isaac should that be His will. Please don't stop asking.
2. For His peace that surpasses understanding... there's a lot we don't understand about all of this; but we desire to rest in the peace of the truth of who God is.
3. For strength... just getting through our days at work has become a pretty laborious task.
4. For my body to continue to cooperate with this medicine and not go into labor prior to October 7.
5. For my fears to be calmed about having a c-section.
6. For the doctors, nurses, and hospital staff that will be working with us... that they may see Christ through our choices, through our love for Isaac, and through our love for each other.
7. For the doctors performing the c-section... that they would be able to navigate this more "complicated" procedure in a way that would be as pain-free as possible for Isaac and that wouldn't put my body or health in jeopardy in any way.
8. For Spencer... that God would strength and uphold him as he continues to comfort and support me.
9. For our parents and sibblings... they, too, are experiencing a loss.
10. For the details we're trying to work on regarding a burial service and a memorial service for Isaac... that the details would come together and they would both honor Isaac and bring glory to God.
11. For the details we're working on with our church regarding having a playground built in Isaac's honor
12. For a good night's sleep each night, and particularly the night of October 6.
13. For God to carry us and make His presence very real to us in the weeks and months to come.

Thank you so much for praying.

37 comments:

michelle said...

Love, love, love you.

Monica @ Writer Chic said...

Ditto Michelle. We love you and have never stopped praying for a miracle.

Anonymous said...

Dear Stacy,

You are a real inspiration and you are teaching me what it truly means to love God and to put my faith in him.

I am praying for a miracle for you, Spencer and Isaac.

Tashia said...

I have been following your blog and faithfully checking and reading your updates. I pray everyday that God will heal little Isaac or give him a fighting chance out of the safe haven on the womb so he can get the medical help he needs and come home with his mommy and daddy.
I cannot imagine how difficult this is for you as your c-section moves closer. I pray that you will find calm and peace from God and in the support you have from family and friends.

Anonymous said...

In church on Sunday we sang my favorite hymn. As I sang this line, I thought of you "Though today we sow no laughter we shall reap celestial joy"

I pray that God sends a miracle.

Anonymous said...

Definitely praying for all of you. The playground is such a nice idea! Your future children can play there, knowing their older brother was such a special person and he made a difference in ALL of our lives.

hennhouse said...

Praying.

Jennifer Currey said...

Stacy,

I started following your journey a couple of weeks ago. I have been and will continue to pray for your entire family. I know how hard these last few days are. If you would like to talk to someone that has recently been on this emotional roller coaster I would be honored. If not, I understand and will continue to pray for you.

Jennifer

You can contact me through the email on my blog... www.timothyjamescurrey.blogspot.com

Jamalynn said...

I will pray for each one of those 13 things for you, Spencer, and baby Isaac.

Anonymous said...

Thanks for your brief synopsis of your problem. I am not a religious person, so praying is not one of my habits or beliefs. I will however keep you in mind. I have a really great feeling about you and your baby. You are in my daily thoughts.

Anonymous said...

I too have recently discovered your blog and have been lifting you up in prayer. Thank you for the prayer list--we will pray for all 13 of these things, but especially for a miracle for baby Isaac. With God all things are possible.

Robyn said...

Praying for you.

Anonymous said...

All my thoughts and prayers are with you.

lindsey said...

Stacy,
I want you to know that through you, Isaac has been given a voice that has touched so many lives. I am praying for your beautiful family, for peace and for healing.
God bless you.

lots_of_love_four_kids said...

Dear Stacy-
I found you a while back- I think through Angie or Stephanie. I wanted you to know that we are praying.
Prayer is powerful.
God Bless You, Spencer and sweet Isaac.

SlicKitty said...

Stacy, You, Isaac, and Spencer continue to be in my prayers. I will add your other requests, as well.

Ashley said...

I have been following your blog and I have to say that you are one amazing, faithful woman. I am praying for you and your beautiful family even though we don't know each other. I pray that God will bless you beyond words. Stay strong - you are an inspiration.

Anonymous said...

My husband and I are praying for you and your family. Issac is lucky to have such a wonderful, loving, devoted mother and father. We truly wish you the best.

AngelsAmid said...

I'm praying for all of those things- plus more (hugs)

Kristin (kekis) said...

Since 13 is such a lucky number, I hope you won't mind if I pray your 13 prayers, then 13 more prayers, and 13 more prayers. I'll just pray in thirteens. Stay strong, dear Stacy and Spencer, but also take time to feel what comes to you. God will carry you through.

Amy said...

I just happened to stumble onto your blog tonight (don't even remember how!) and I just want to let you know that I am praying for you. 2-1/2 years ago, I gave birth to my daughter, Natalie, after carrying her to term even though she was diagnosed with a lethal birth defect at her 20 week ultrasound and my doctor suggested "early birth". Natalie is with Jesus now, but every bit of worry and heartache while she was in my tummy was worth the time we were able to spend with her on earth. I want you know that I am covering you with prayers and begging the Lord for a miracle for your Issac. My heart aches remembering how it felt to be where you are right now. Sorry for the fumbling words...they seem so inadequate. I hope these next few days go smoothly. Praying for your family, Amy

Anonymous said...

Prayers are being offered. I have been thinking of you so much as the time gets closer. I hope it is ok if I offer your family up in prayer anonymously at Bible Study this Friday. Our church family literally prayed us to safety and I am going to ask them to pray without ceasing for a miracle and for peace for you and your family. You are so loved, Jill

Joanne said...

you are amazing. such strong faith. I think about you and pray for you, Isaac and Spencer, everyday. your family is "covered" in prayer. miracles and healings happen. we are praying for both.

Anonymous said...

I have been following your story online for the past couple of months. My heart aches for you, and I pray for you and your family every day.

Your story, and Isaac, has brought me back to God, who I have been away from for quite some time.

Also, I found this website, and I hope you don't mind me sharing it with you - when I saw it, I immediately thought of you, as you and your family try to come up with ways to honor your son. www.imprintonmyheart.com

13 prayers and more...love

Stacy said...

Praying for a miracle...

Jeff & Leza said...

Stacy you are always in my prayers. I think of your family of three very often. I have never met or even spoken to you, but your endless Faith and love for Jesus Christ has me returning to your post. Your little boy will always be perfect and healed in God's arms. I pray that His will is to bring whatever makes little Isaac most comfortable. Your miracle will happen even if it is not the miracle you are hoping for...I pray that God heals your pain over time and in Isaac's little life can bring many others closer to Him. Your family is so special and you deserve all the happiness.

I love the picture of you and Spencer with the thumbs up and then the ultrasound. Isaac really is one of a kind. I hope you have a wonderful 13 days with Isaac and enjoy those kicks from below.

GOD BLESS

Anonymous said...

It's so heartbreaking that you have to go through this. You are much stronger than you give yourself credit for. Count me among the many people that check in with you daily, who pray for you by name, and will not stop praying for a miracle for Isaac. Always praying for you.

Phyllis said...

Hi Stacy,

I know that we haven't spoken in a while, but you are always in my thoughts! I have been reading every post that you have written and wish that I were closer in order to stop by and give you a hug or just be able to chat with you. I can only imagine how hard these next 2 weeks are going to be for you, but you are seriously one of the strongest people I know (both mentally and physically)! Even though I'm a few states away, if you need ANYTHING, I am always here for you!!!
Love,
Phyllis

Traci said...

Stacy,

You and Issac have changed my life forever. You've been and continue to be an inspiration. I'm learning to have faith in God and trust in his will.

I will continue to pray for a miracle for you, Specner and baby Issac.

Issac has already changed my life, and I'm sure I'm not the only one. He's done more already in his life than most have ever done in their lives. God is working through him Stacy. You have been blessed. What an honor to carry such a special child.

I'm praying for you, for God to give you strength, grace, peace, and an understanding of all this. For the first time in a long time I can say with true faith he will give you all those things and much more.

God Bless you guys!

Jennifer said...

I just happened upon your blog the other night, somehow- and all I can do is sit here in awe of your faith, your love, your strength.

I am praying for a miracle for Isaac-God is bigger than we can ever imagine- may you feel His arms around you, and around Isaac as well.

Oh how my heart breaks for you and your situation- but what a wonderful mother you are-God knew He could trust you with this special precious boy.

Sending prayers for you-heartfelt,pure prayer, for healing,comfort, and love.

Jen

Lost in Translation said...

Stacy I just want to say that I am praying for you a baby Isaac! Because I dont want either of you to feel pain! I want him to stay with you and your family! Sorry I havent talked to you in a while as I have not been on benotafraid.net in a while! Its simply ironic that i myself am anticipating Oct. 7th's arrival because hopefully I will be dialated enough to have my c-section sooner than the 13th, and you are hoping that time will slow so that you can keep Isaac safe and warm inside of you! I am praying for your miracle, hoping that God will heal Isaac on this side of heaven! My love and prayers are with you all!

Love
Chelsie

Susan NiƱo said...

Praying in San Antonio for all the things on your list! You're amazing!!

Kirsten said...

Praying, praying, praying. God has each of you in His hands. And He won't let go.

His blessings and strength,
Kirsten C.

Stephanie said...

Rest assured you are showing everyone around you Christ.
Praying for a miracle and will not stop.

Devon Rene said...

holding you up in prayer.

you are in my thoughts daily as well....

Stacy said...

Thinking of you this morning..praying good things for today...your favorite song on the radio...lots of precious Isaac kicks and wiggles...little glimpes of God's hand...

elizabeth embracing life said...

I am reading your blog for the first time today and am so moved and touched and brought back to the memories a little over 19 years ago when I was to deliver a baby girl who not survive past her first breath.

I know God has reasons beyond our earthly knowledge to take perfect children to be with him now. For some reason he kept Emily here on earth through only a miracle.

I have also read that when God says no not now, he means it and we must accept what is, but faith is believing right down to the last hour.

Please take a moment to read Emily's miracle:

http://elizabethonthego.blogspot.com/2008/03/my-miracle-for-today.html

It is never to late to test our faith to what seems like the 12th hour. God may already have plans for your sweet baby boy, a special place for his head, and God's hand ready to hold his, but this could be an amazing faith building moment too.

It's hard to accept when there seems to be no miracle. I have a deaf child who I have prayed over and over that God would heal him, but the fact is that his life is a testament to amazing faith and I would not have known that six years ago, as I do today.

God be with your heart as you move through these next days. Praying for you and your husband.