Sunday, October 12, 2008

Heavy

Heavy. It's the only word I know to describe my heart and my arms right now.

I am really missing my sweet Isaac today. In some ways, coming home from the hospital has brought some comfort; yet in other ways, I wish I could go back. It's the place where my son was born, the place where I held him, the place where it didn't feel as if the whole world was "business as usual" while my world had been shattered.

I miss holding him and kissing his little nose and his face over and over again... I miss the way it feels when he wrapped his little hand around my finger... I miss the softness of his little feet... and I miss the smell of my little baby boy. I want to be able to tell him one more time how much I love him and how proud of him I am.

We are so grateful for the outpouring of love, encouragement, and support that so many of you have offered us... and to many of you, we are complete strangers. We are also grateful for the way God continues to carry us... through his word, and through the encouragement and prayers of His people. We hope that many of you (those that are nearby at least) will be able to join us for Isaac's memorial service next weekend.






151 comments:

Anonymous said...

((Hugs)) and continued prayers from IL.

Mary said...

Hugs and many prayers from PA. your sweet little boy is watching over you now as is God. May you continue to be blessed by God through all of the people who love you.

Anonymous said...

from a stranger friend in atlanta...what a perfect and beautiful baby boy. your family is in my thoughts and prayers.

Anonymous said...

I don't know how to say anything comforting. I don't know your pain but I have some understanding of the depth of it and I just pray for you both. At odd times of the day my thoughts wander your way and I pray and I praise God for your son and for the goodness of your hearts at such a sad and empty time.

Abbie said...

I am continuing to pray for you!

Anonymous said...

Your blog has captivated me for weeks. And even though I'm a complete stranger, I just want you to know that you are not alone. There is so much love and support coming your way right now..and prayers-tons of them. I'm not going to pretend I know what you are going through. In fact, I know you are coping better than I ever would. I would be angry. You are hurt but comforted that Issac is in God's hands, which he 100% is. You are an inspiration whether you know it or not. Your strength makes me realize I can get through even the most petty things in life. You are an amazing person, and I can tell that just through your blogs. As I look over at my 2 1/2 year old boy, I am reminded how blessed I am. God bless your family. You are/will be a fabulous mother.

Laura Ann said...

You are in my prayers this morning. I can not imagine how you must be feeling and I will not try. Isaac is beautiful...thanks for sharing all your pictures and I am so glad you have those sweet memories that will treaure forever. You and your husband are amazing and your faith is so encouraging to me and others. Your words are so honest and so real...thank you for opening your heart and your faith to all of us.

Debbie said...

My prayers are with you and your family. What a sweet baby boy.

they call me the boss said...

We've never met but Issac has touched my heart and brought me closer to God. His life had such purpose and you are so courageous to allow us to share in your lives in such an intimate way.
Keeping you in my prayers.

Hazeleyessue said...

You may be "complete strangers", but you are a sister and a brother in Christ! My husband and I are continuing to pray for you. The pictures of Isaac are beautiful! May the Lord continue to bring comfort to you and Spencer!

Anonymous said...

My heart is breaking for you. I'm just so sorry. Continued prayers from Nebraska.

Laura said...

Praying for the ache in your arms and the ache in your heart. Let Spencer hold you close. Sending you love.

Monica @ Writer Chic said...

Still, and always, praying for you.

Kristin said...

What a beautiful little boy! My heart is breaking for you but I admire your strength and faith in God. He will carry yall through this! God bless you and your family!

sandi said...

I don't want you to feel alone, You have so many friends and strangers all over the world praying for you and with you at this time. You have touched so many by sharing your story and pain with us all. I can't imagine the ache you must feel for your little guy. But I know it is real and intense. I am praying for you.

love from California

Melanie said...

I am also a stranger that kinda knows how it feels. I recently miscarried my first baby to an unknown diagnoses. I know that heavy feeling in your heart. It's a feeling that just feels as if you can't move forward, BUT sister in Christ you can and will move forward. This was my first pregnancy and I was due this week. I want you to know that I am here for you and I know the Lord blessed me with you to encourage me and so that we both can reach out to others! God bless you and your hubby. Your sister in Christ,Melanie

Mrs. Spit said...

I remember leaving the hospital. On the one hand, I so desperately wanted to be home, to bind up my broken heart, on the other, all I could think of was that we were leaving Gabriel behind.

It's hard. It's terribly, terribly hard. And I am sorry that you would have to know this pain.

For I know that my Redeemer lives. And in the end He will stand upon the earth. And though my flesh has died, in my body I will see God.

Job 19:25.

Anonymous said...

I have thought about you non-stop for the past week. This morning, I woke up thinking about Stacy, Spencer and Isaac. Though we have never met, I'm praying for you with each passing day. My prayers are that you will stay strong and be comforted by the memories of your little boy. He is so beautful. His pictures are adorable. Please stay strong and hang in there. God is good. I know that He has a plan for you guys.

Love, Jessica

Crystal said...

Lots of hugs.

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry again. I am thinking of you. I just wanted to let you know that I think you have a typo under Isaac's picture... You put 14 lbs and I believe it should be 4.

Anonymous said...

I am thinking of you and prying for you and your family.

CIRCLE OF LIFE said...

I am so sorry for you loss , there are no words to describe what you are going through but like i told greg and nicol todd amiths family, he is up in heaven and not in pain , he is blinking at you and is running around and watching every move you make and is so happy to know that you were his parents and most of all, family, issac is with our father now, who is helping him remember you and the family always. if ever feeling blue just look above a blink and remember that very special day that you were todether and smile case he sure loves your smile and that touch , and that is what he will cherish and remember of his mama and pappa.

i am so terrible sorry for your loss. please take dcare of yourselfs . amen

MeghanM said...

I am deepy sorry for your loss and will keep you in my prayers. Your pictures are beautiful, particularly the one of you kissing sweet Isaac's nose. My heart swells with sadness when I put myself in your place but I am happy to read what strong faith you have and know that you will be OK as long as know you have God.

Addison said...

Those pictures are absolutely GORGEOUS! There is nothing better than that first picture of a momma and her baby. I hope God continues to hold your heart as you try and heal. Lots of prayers and lots of love your way.

Kristin (kekis) said...

Your hearts are heavy because they are in pieces right now, with each piece weighing more than the one that broke before it. I hope and pray through time that God will slowly piece your hearts together again. Although there will always be a piece that is Isaac's, and that will never change.

While we are all strangers, we have become a group of friends on PL/TTCAL/SAL. So yes, in the terms of most people we are strangers, but I have been calling you my friend. (I hope you don't mind!)

So prayers and blessings and love to you, my friend. Keep relying on His strength when you cannot be strong, and allow Him to carry you through these dark days.

Maggie said...

Just wanted to say I am still thinking about you, Spencer and Isaac and I so admire your strength. HUGS.

Kirsten said...

I LOVE the picture of Isaac holding your finger! just beautiful.

Jamie said...

Another stranger friend from MO here...thank you both SO much for sharing your story. Heart-wrenching, unbelievable and inspiring at the same time. My heart goes out to you and your family. Your sweet baby angel will always be with you :)

Alexandra's Mommy said...

Your baby boy will be with you forever in memory, thoughts, pictures and these blogs! You will love looking back at the letters you have written him and the blogs you have posted!
We continue to pray for you and to hope that each day gets a little better and a little easier! We hope that you both can smile a little more each day!
We are all thinking about you during the day and night! Remember you are not alone!

The Schuler Family!

Haute Cooking said...

I can't even imagine what you're going through. Issac looks like a little angel. I wish you and your husband peace during this time. Thank you for sharing Issac with us. He has touched so many lives in his short time with you.

Anonymous said...

I'm praying for you all, every single day. My heart is broken along with so many other people around the world. May our prayers and love embrace you and support you in this time.

Mrs. Mother said...

Hugs to you. Those heavy arms are a sign of grief, and I went it through it, too, when we lost our Jenna to Trisomy 18. Big hugs to you as I know how hard the coming days will be.

memphislis said...

I went to Snapfish and watched Isaac's slideshow. Tears rolled down my face. I could feel the love and the sorrow in the room as your friends and family held your beautiful baby boy.You and your husband are in my prayers.
Grace and Peace,
Melissa

BLOWL said...

Aloha from Hawaii. I've discovered your blog 2 days ago. (2 days after Isaac's birthday). I understand your pain as I have experienced 2 pregnancies and 2 losses, the last being just 2 weeks ago. These losses have shaken my faith a little, and I thank God for leading me to your blog so that I can be inspired by your story and your courage and your never ending faith in the Lord. Please continue to write, it helps me in my time of grief. Like you, I am 29 years old and am still awaiting the Lord to bless me and my husband with my first child.

Whitney said...

Isaac is a beautiful little boy! We are sending prayers that you will find peace as you remember and cherish the memories of him.

Bethy said...

I've been following your story and praying all along. Continued prayers are being said. Lot of hugs to you from OH.

Open your Eyes... said...

Those pictures are beautiful. You shine as a mummy in them! May you be encouraged that what your walking through right now is filled with the most beautiful memories and pictures you have created with your little boy.

My thoughts and prayers are with you sweety! xxx.

Amy said...

Praying for God's peacs over you and your family. I can't imagine how hard this time is for you...But you will never know how many lives Isaac's life has touched...and to so many of us reminded us to be thankful for the children we have, even on bad days, I am blessed to have them at all. Thank you for sharing your faith, and your hurt with all of us. Even though I've never met you, I feel like I've known you for years. Sister's in Christ!

Love Amy (TN)

Baseballs and Tutu's said...

My heart breaks for you! I will continue to pray each day that you may somehow find your way through this.

May you find peace and continue to feel God's presence around you! Your baby boy will forever be watching you from above.

Anonymous said...

I don't even know you, yet I can't stop thinking about you. The pictures of your precious little boy are etched in my mind! Makes me all the more thankful that I have a healthy baby.....I know now that every moment is a gift from God. Stay strong-you are truly an inspiration to so many people. Your little angel will be watching over you.

mandie said...

the photos are so beautiful, Stacy. Much love from TX.

Erika said...

Prayers and love from Pasadena, CA. I am so sorry. There are no words to describe how difficult it is to lose your child. When my twin daughters were stillborn this summer, the most helpful things people said to me were that we were in their thoughts and prayers, and that no words could describe what I was experiencing. It's true- until you've watched your child go to Heaven, there's nothing that comes close to that pain and yet there is also a peace in knowing he is with God. It's complicated, and painful, and terrible. I am so sorry for the loss of Isaac, your beautiful, perfect little boy.

Misty Rice-Baniewicz said...

Oh mommy..... I cry for your pain and your hurt. My words could never be that helpful, but maybe my prayer after prayer will be. I having trouble seeing through my tears right now to type. I feel heavy every day that I think of you, and the many other families I have gotten to know through "BLOGS" about the loss of their babies. I know we are not supposed to question God, but to truly believe that there are GREATER THINGS TO COME FROM ALL OF THIS.... so then when I struggle with this and maybe this will help you and I shared it on another blog today as well. "GOD I BELIEVE....PLEASE PLEASE HELP WITH MY DISBELIEF".

As I was sharing your story with my husband... I said to him, after all the things that this family is going through "YOUR FAMILY AT THIS MOMENT", the hardest of all to me as a mother would be the moment they take our babies out of our arms and then they don't bring them back. I know my pain I feel right now could never compare to yours mommy.... but know I feel love, pain and hope for you and your future growing family. Its hard to breath just thinking about this.... so the strength you continue to show lets me know God is in control over there with you.

Next Saturday is going to be the 2nd most hardest day of your life. I will pray all day for you. I am sure you will feel almost as if an anxiety attack is going to come over you, for thinking about it makes me feel it as well..... when that happens.... use Angie's words "hold me Jesus, Hold me Jesus".

Hold your head up high mama.....your little BOY has touched mored lives and hearts in his short 16 minutes than he may have in 50 years. GOD IS SO GOOD IN THAT!!! I know that doesn't make things easier, or any less painful, but maybe at least can give you a second of JOY while you read this.... even if just for a second!!!!

God Bless...

Meghan said...

just a stranger from annapolis who came across your blog...issac is an absolutely beautiful baby boy...thank you for sharing so many wonderful pictures of him...i am so, so very sorry...i keep you and your husband in my prayers everyday and know that issac is watching over you both from heaven...

brandy said...

I'm sometimes on the SAL board, and I've read your blog numerous times...and I want to say that it touches my heart in an amazing and special way. No words can describe the loss I know you're feeling. With my 2 miscarriages, I took comfort that my babies were safe with Jesus and they were overjoyed with true life. Everytime I look at my baby girl now just 1 month old, I realize that life on this earth is not a guarantee, it's a blessing to be appreciated. And because of your story, I can look at her with an even more grateful heart. My prayers go out to you and your family. Your life and Isaac's life have left an amazing footprint on this world.

Patrice said...

Sending prayers your way. My heart breaks for you, and the picture of him holing on to your finger is so touching.

Mommy Attorney said...

Issac is so beautiful! Your wonderful family is in my prayers.

Kate said...

We are complete strangers from Westminster, Maryland, but our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family at this time. Your strength and courage inspires me to live a life where the important things should never be taken for granted.

Lean on Jesus, hold His hand and squeeze.

Tif said...
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Sarah said...

Prayers and hugs for you. I've been thinking of your family constantly.

Kim said...

Isaac has touched so many people. Many prayers to you and Spencer.

Devon Rene said...

stacey...he is beautiful. absolutely gorgeous!

i am so sorry you are having to walk this road but please know you aren't alone. i won't lie and say its easy, because it definently is not but i see god's grace daily in my life.

and i long for heaven as i never have before. thinking of you...

and knowing our sweet boys are the best of friends.

~devon

Anonymous said...

We are still praying, and just sent an email your way. I pray God takes your heaviness and emptiness and replaces it with peace. We will see you at the memorial service for your beautiful Isaac.

The picture of him holding your hand says it all. Know that entire church families are praying for you around the clock, so that you may feel comfort in your darkest hours. Much love, Jill and Andy

Anonymous said...

Hes so beautiful. Praying for you all.

Jennifer said...

Spencer and Stacy,
Words cannot express how we feel for you at this time. Please know that you and your family will remain in our thoughts and prayers. Isaac is beautiful and is so lucky to have parents like you. Try hard to keep the faith and know that he is now in the arms of Jesus.... If there is anything that we can do, please don't hesitate to ask. We will continue to send our sympathy your way!

Anonymous said...

Stacy - You astound me with your faith and strength. Your baby is absolutely beautiful. I know God will send you and Spencer many more beautiful babies. I hope that as time goes on, your heart will become a little less heavy although it will always hold a special spot for Isaac.

Sending you strength from an anonymous friend in PA.

Anonymous said...

I was led to your site by Angie Smith's blog "Bring the Rain." I have been touched and uplifted by Isaac's story. You have a complete stranger in Tennessee praying for you and your family! Isaac is beautiful.

Anonymous said...

Thinking of you...

Kelly C (redsox123) nest.com said...

Im so sorry for you and your family. I have been reading your story everyday I can. THe pictures you have shared are beautiful. He really is so sweet. I really honor your courage and strength. I will continue to pray for you, your family and your beautiful little angel. Kelly C

Shelli said...

What a beautiful, beautiful baby boy. My thoughts and my prayers are with you and your family.

AngelsAmid said...

Stacy-
I begin to type words to express how I feel and yet the words seem meaningless because no matter what I can't express how truly and deeply sorry I am. :'( I pray for you and Spencer everyday. I'm just so sorry.
Love,
Krista

Anonymous said...

I too am a strange. I am from Pittsburgh, PA. Your blog is a daily part of my day. The three of you (especially little Issac) are an inspiration to us all. Your story is a true lesson on god, prayer, strength and frienship. I've shared your story/blog with others and everyone is praying for your family. God Bless.

Christine

So Blessed said...

Praying for you today...lifting you to the Lord for comfort and strength to get through these difficult days of grief.

craig&betty Laf said...

there are no words. our hearts have been broken and crushed as we've read your story, listened to the beautiful hymns,and soaked in the beautiful
pictures of you ,Spencer and your
precious Issac.Tears have been streaming down my face. I, too, had been praying for a healing miracle.
Issac is healed now,maybe that is some small comfort.May Jesus arms
surround you tightly,moment by moment.May He be very near to you
and Spencer as you pour out your
aching,hurting hearts -even when you can only cry out "help me".
We will be faithful in praying for
you and your whole family.
Thank you for sharing your deepest
thoughts.You are very special.
The Lord will not leave you
comfortless-He has promised!

Anonymous said...

Continued prayers from MA. May your faith in God comfort you during this difficult time.

Busted said...

You are all in our thoughts - I also longed to go back to the hospital, to where I had been with our babies, those memories will always be so precious.

Much love.

Jill said...

If there were anything at all that I could write to help you feel even a tiny bit better, I would. But I know there is nothing. I am so so sorry. I don't even know you but I will never forget you...the courage you showed by letting your Issac be born, and live, even if just a short time. He is beautiful, and so are his parents. So many people love you, so many people care.

Jen said...

I would be there if there wasn't an ocean or two in the way.

Still praying for you, precious mother. You, or your precious son will not be forgotten.

Brittany said...

prayers and thoughts are with you and your family. your baby boy is absolutely beautiful and i know he is so very proud of his mommy and daddy. no words can comfort in a time like this, so i won't try. just know that there are people all over the world lifting you up in prayer tonight.

much love from kentucky

~Kelli said...

Isaac is absolutely beautiful! I can't even begin to imagine the grief you are carrying, My continued prayers!

Anonymous said...

Thoughts and prayers are with your family during this difficult time. May your faith carry through these days.

Amber said...

I am praying for your family in this extremely difficult time. I know that God will give you peace and strength.

KK said...

Praying without ceasing for your family, for peace of mind, for healing and for comfort, knowing HE will carry you.
May God Bless Your Family always,
Kaye
Psalm 46:10

Aspiemom said...

I wish I had words of comfort, but only God can do that right now most likely. I'm so sorry for your pain and am praying for you.

Anonymous said...

What a perfect creation. By reading your blog I have been inspired to live with a thankful heart and seek to understand the gift that life brings daily. What a testimony you are to the value of God's miraculous gift of life.

Tif said...

Sweet Stacy...
You've been in my prayers often. I've sent you an email to share details. Will continue to pray.

-Tif

Amber said...

Thank you for sharing the most intimate moments with your Isaac. The photos are all beautiful, but I especially loved his first photos with his Mommy. God Bless you and your Isaac. He will get you through the hard road ahead.

Anonymous said...

Although you don't know me I hope that you will be able to feel the prayers that I am praying for you during this time. I hope that you will continuously feel that God is carrying you through this. Issac is beautiful and although his time on earth was short it served a great purpose that we may never understand.

Angie said...

Offering my thoughts and prayers for you right now. Even though we are strangers I want you to know that we are praying for you. Your baby boy is beautiful. God Bless you and your family.
Angie
Adrian MN

Alison said...

I'm sorry for everything you're going through right now, Stacy. We are continuing to pray for you that God would grant you the peace that passes all understanding. I think about you a lot and whenever I do, I ask God to give you a little extra measure of his grace and mercy during this very difficult time.

((HUGS))

Anonymous said...

You and your husband are amazing examples of faith. Please know that you are loved and prayed for, even though we have never met. May God grant you all His peace and healing power.

Angela said...

I think that all of us feel a part of that heavy weight for you, too. Your pictures are just too precious for words. I hope you wrote down lots of things so you can always remember them. I am so, so sorry for your loss.

Huddle Girls said...

Stacy and Spencer,

You will continue to feel heavy in the days and weeks to come. I do not say this to discourage you, but to encourage you to allow others to help when they can and also to encourage you to allow God to help carry you during this time. I too have walked this road after losing Gavin just over 5 months ago and it is so very hard. Continue to remember and embrace those precious moments that you had with Issac. He is your child and he will always know how very loved he was. All he knew was love, what an amazing gift you were able to give him. You continue to be in my prayers each and every day.

Blessings,
Amanda

Foreverloves said...

Your son is beautiful, your story is heartwrenching, your spirit is obviously indominable. God bless you all! hugs and prayers.

grandmaof6 said...

There are no words any of us can say to make things easier for you. Many of us are strangers but you and your family have touched our hearts in a way no one else has. I will continue to pray for you and Spencer.

natalie said...

What an amazing woman of faith you are! I'm in a place where I'm not able to read your entire story right now. But I know I will be back to learn more about your precious son and the time you had with him. Heavy is a hard place to be, yet the Lord will carry you through. When things are too heavy for you, He is there to lighten the load. I'm wrestled with this so often, wanting to cling to my heaviness, to wrap myself up in it and deal with it on my own. I'm praying for you and Spencer--that you'll have peace that surpasses understanding. That the heaviness is bearable.
Love in Christ,
Natalie Benson
Macon, GA

Mommy to Madison, Matthew and Melanie said...

From Gaby Larson and family and baby angel matthew.. We are praying for you everyday. Our hearts go out to you and your family. We are thinking of you and remember that Issac is now a precious little angel. He was too precious for earth and now my little boy has a new buddy to play with :)
All of our love and I am here for you if you ever need to talk. God bless.

Connie Davis said...

I cry for sweet Isaac. Isaac is so lucky to have you as his parents. You are so brave. I admire you and your strength. Keep loving God and each other!

Kendra S-L said...

The place where your son is born is always the place where you want to return. The business-as-usual rigors do not exist there, that is so true. However, we have to keep looking for the small little miracles in the great big construction zone of a world. God is everywhere! Blessings, heavy-hearted one...I am praying for your healing!

Christy said...

I don't know you guys, but my heart has been with you since I read your story. I read your entire blog on the day that Isaac was born; you have inspired me to levels of faith that I had forgotten. You have truly inspired me to pick up my bible and search! Thank you so much for sharing your story, I hope that someday you realize what a gift you have given by sharing your son with us. The love and faith that you have demonstrated are phenomenal. As a parent, my biggest fear is losing one of my girls; I have had so much anxiety over this and was so afraid that if something happened to any of my children, that I would also lose my relationship with God out of anger, fear, or grief Thank you so much for showing the loving, Christian way through the most difficult situation in the world. You have inspired me to new levels of faith, and have lightened my burden of anxiety tremendously. Thank you for sharing so much of your innermost thoughts. My most sincere prayers are with your family. Blessings to you.

Ajs prinCesS said...

my heart honestly hurts for you, i think your amazing and i couldny help but to tell you that. your baby boy was so beautiful. ive been praying for you everyday. and your husband and family. God will carry you through this.please keep your faith. it will carry you a long way. Stay strong.
<3
sharon

Nestie Becoming_untied said...

It is not completely "business as usual" for me. Stacy, you and Spencer have changed people for the better. Isaac has changed people for the better! It sounds like other people are admitting the same. Please know that even if people seem to be going about their business you and your sweet family are on the minds and hearts of so many people.

I have thought about your family everyday for months now. I have prayed for you all and will continue to do so.

May God's comfort and blessings shower all of Isaac's family.

Trish said...

(hugs)
He will carry you ...I don't know what to say - grief can't be hurried but it can be shared.
Peace , love and strength to you all.

Stephanie said...

Thank you for lettin us continue to grieve with you. He is so beautiful. I know your heart is broken and will be until you hold him again. I am praying He continues to carry you.
I am so so sorry. But, I am amazed at how one sweet little boy has changed SO many lives.

Carrie said...

GOD BLESS YOU!

Mario and Debra said...

You are in our thoughts and prayers! God bless you and your family. Isaac is in the arms of Jesus now watching over his mommy and daddy! Isaac is beautiful. Thank you for sharing him with us.

Anonymous said...

I continue to pray for you and your family. I cannot imagine what you and Spencer are going through and anytime I try and put myself in your shoes, I am in awe of you stength and resolve. I pray for continued strength and guidance during this very difficult time. (((HUGS)))

Jen said...

Your pictures are beautiful! I'll be continuing to pray for you and Spencer.

Taylor said...

For you, in your pain, to think about me... you are a true friend! Thank you for sending me to that website. They have such precious things to remember our sweet little ones. I will be ordering very soon for sure. I appreciate it.

I'm constantly praying for you. I know that some moments are better than others and that in any random moment, when all seems fine, the tears will come like they never had before. Allow yourself to hurt. It's OKAY to not answer the phone when people call or the door when they want to come over. You need your time with your husband to grieve. Give yourself that time. I am praying that in doing so, you will find healing.

Anonymous said...

Continued prayers! You are an amazing person with such strength. Your blog has touched my life in so many ways! I wish I lived close to attend the memorial. We will be thinking of you!

Kamaile said...

May peace be with you.

Anonymous said...

There are no goodbyes for believers. Just "I will see you soon!" You will see Isaac soon, but until then Jesus is holding him close!

katienryan said...

You have two angels in heaven now. I commend you on your faith and strength. I will pray for your family's healing.

Anonymous said...

Stay strong in your faith! They that sow in tears will reap joy...

Prayerfully,

Laura W. (Rocky Face, GA)

Anonymous said...

While following your story my heart has been heavy for you. May you know the comfort of God in the days to come.

Prayers from Wyoming

Hunt Fam x3 said...

I am still praying for your strength during this time! I SO wish I was close enough to be there for the service. BNut know that my heart will be with all of you on that day. I pray that you and your sweet family will continue to be uplifted through the Spirit! Through Cjrist's love I love you and Isaac!

Your SISTER in Christ,
Rachel
Montgomery, AL

Anonymous said...

Thinking of you and praying.

Cynthia

jen said...

I am another stranger who was led to your story, and find myself in awe of you and your beautiful son. I think him often during my day and I am praying for your peace and healing. Your little angel has touched my life and left an imprint, and I thank you for sharing him with us all. Through your son I have been reminded of the beauty of grace, the beauty of forgiveness, and the beauty of eternal life. I am adding my thoughts, hugs, and prayers to so many you have coming your way already.

pollykinz said...

You and Spencer continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. You now have a beautiful little angel to watch over you. What a lucky baby to have felt so much love.

Michelle Leigh said...

Hi there, I'm another stranger but I just wanted to tell you that he is such a beautiful baby boy. He looks perfect. I am so truly sorry for your loss, I can't even begin to imagine what you are going through. You seem to be grounded in your faith and I'm sure that brings you comfort in this trying time. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Anonymous said...

Fervently praying in San Diego for peace and rest for your minds and hearts. That you will cling to each other and feel the Lord's presence. God Bless You as you continue to walk this difficult journey.

Anonymous said...

I have been following your blog for a while now and I can't begin to express how much your story has touched me. Your faith and perseverance are truly an inspiration to me. I find myself thinking of your family and continue to send prayers your way. I hope that you burden will be lightened and you will find peace knowing your little angel is watching over you. Thank you for sharing your story I know how difficult that must be. You are truly amazing people. Thank you again and God bless.

The Knight Family said...

My heart is broken for you .
with love & prayers from Tennessee~
Cindy Knight

~Denise~ said...

You are in my thoughts.

Anonymous said...

your son is just so gorgeous. What a beautiful baby you and your husband made. God has a special angel, and a handsome one :)

LeAnn said...

You are truely the most amazing person. My prayers are with you

SadMommy3434 said...

Your little boy is HANDSOME!! I hope that you and Spencer can find some peace and just know that Isaac will always be with you forever and always.

Diana said...

My friend Angela who blogs as "The Amicks" mentioned you in her blog and posted a link to your blog. I just want you to know that your family is beautiful. I can't even began to express my sorrow for you and your family. Just reading your story I have tears running down my face and a thick lump in my throat. Stories like yours make me appreciate my two little blessing even more! You make me want to reach out and hug and kiss my girls and extra time today. I have undergone two c-sections now and I know how nervous and stressful they can be even when everything is "normal." I can not imagine what it is like recovering at home without him. He was truly a beautiful baby. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Crista said...

Stacey, you have been on my mind all weekend. The courage and strength you have shown in your faith at a time when many would turn away is inspiring and fills me with awe.

Isaac is a beautiful, perfect little boy, and will forever be in my heart.

kricket said...

Your family is constantly in my prayers. Stay strong in Jesus.

Amanda-The Family News! said...

What an adorable little angel. My prayers are with your family.
Amanda-SC

A Mom in Jacksonville, FL said...

I feel compelled to write. My profile "sister, daughter, teacher, etc." is so similar to yours.

Today is my first visit to your blog. I want you to know that I SO admire your faith and strength. I am humbled by your ability to give Isaac to Jesus when you had him for such a brief time.

The photos you shared are heartwarming. It looks like you have a wonderful support network.

I will keep you and your hubby in my prayers.

Hugs from Florida!

Anonymous said...

Your courage and pain have both been weighing heavily on my heart here in Charlotte, NC. I admire your strength and love for this beautiful little boy and wish you much happiness and peace as you celebrate his brief, but meaingingful time on earth. If only we all could leave such an amazing impression upon the world in our lifetimes, as Issac has left during his. Your family is in my thoughts and prayers....

Josh, Jenifer, and Mackenzie said...

I have been reading your blog for weeks. Even though I'm a complete stranger, remember you aren't alone. There are so many prayers coming your way right now along with lots of love. I wish there was a way that I could do more for you and your family. You are an inspiration to so many people! Isaac has changed so many lives! I have become so much more patient with my toddler and thank God for her about a million times a day and I atribute that to your story. You and Spencer are amazing people. I find myself thinking of your family at random times during the last few weeks and I have prayed for yall each time. Thank you so much for sharing your story! Continued prayers from Mississipi...

Scarlett said...

We will continue to pray for you and your little angel Isaac.

Anonymous said...

Your faith amazes me.I am not sure if I could be the same way. I am angry at god right now for not giving you your miracle. My heart is heavy for you and your family. NO mother should ever have to bury their child. I wish you peace and am praying for you.

Tim and Michelle said...

My goodness Stacy--he's breathtaking and so, so sweet to look at. What blows me away most is the pure love I can tell he feels as you and Spencer hold him...I feel it myself even through the computer, crying the whole time of course. What a wonderful time you had, holding your baby, seeing the culmination of your love as a couple and knowing that you protected him for so many months so he could have the God-given right to breathe a breath. We love you guys and praise the Lord Isaac is whole with Jesus.

mollie said...

your son is a beautiful angel. what a blessing he has been to your family and to countless others whose lives he has touched.

prayers and love.

Polly Gamwich said...

I was just introduced to your blog today. I wanted to say that those pictures of you with Isaac (presumably while they were stitching you up from the c-section) ... were so sweet and so intimate. Thank you for sharing those. I wept for you and I rejoice with you that Isaac is with His Maker.

I can only imagine the days ahead and I pray for great comfort and strength for you and Spencer.

Many hugs,
Polly

Rachel said...

words cannot express my sadness for you. As I look at the pictures fo your perfect baby boy I am throbbing at the heart and tears are pouring down my face.

I am praying for you.

Anonymous said...

Many virtual hugs and prayers from Oregon. I'm so sorry for the loss of your BEAUTIFUL little Isaac. Your faith is inspiring. Please keep posting so we know how you're doing, and I hope you find comfort in knowing people all over the nation are thinking of you, praying for you, and remembering Isaac. Jennifer L.

Zoey's mama said...

As you can see, it isn't "business as usual" for many of us. I also find myself stopping throughout the day to think about you & your family. And it just makes me really appreciate all that I have.
Your strength is awe-inspiring. I hope for you a quick physical recovery and many fond dreams of your sweet little boy.

SlicKitty said...

It's not business as usual for me today either, Stacy. You've opened my eyes to a whole group of suffering women. One is very close to me. I thank you, your husband, and your son for that. I thank God for all of you, and I know that she does, too. One day, I feel that your family will be part of the catalyst that helps her make her decision for Christ. Your faith through your ordeal has made such an impact on so many. Through this, you've stored up many treasures in Heaven.

Know that you are blessed.

Anonymous said...

May God hold you tight as he holds your son. Thoughts and prayers for you from Michigan.

Jennifer said...

Continuing to pray, and to think of you, Spencer, and Isaac. Like the others said-we may be strangers, but we are family in Christ! May He lighten the burden of your heart, and be with you in a tangible way. I'm praying that the healing that comes your way is greater than your pain.

Much love from Central California.

Jen

Ashley Gregg said...

I so appreciate your faith in a time like this. My husband and I have dealt with infertility for the last several years. It has been so hard, but I do not pretend to comprehend the grief you are now experiencing. I grieve with you...my heart aches for you, but I know without a doubt that your son is in the arms of the Lord. He has never known the heartache of this earth. All he knows is the beauty of heaven and I rejoice with you in that. I pray that you will find hope in the midst of your tragedy. A friend of mine has dealt with a similar situation her blog is joyshope.blogspot.com

tashia said...

Isaac is so beautiful. I love the picture of him holding your finger. It is so hard for me to understand why these things happen to someone like you who truely wanted and longed for their child. I have to believe that God has a plan in all of this. Like someone else said. You can see in the pictures that he KNOWS how much he is LOVED! He just knew. I can tell his final moments were peaceful. He is just so so beautiful, words cannot describe.

Laura B said...

Thank you for sharing your story and pictures of your beautiful son!

Charity said...

I recently was introduced to your blog and I have been praying for you several times a day since then. Like so many others have said, I have no words to take away the pain, but I do know that the Lord holds each tear that you shed. He knows exactly what you need. I will continue to pray for you every day. So much love from Albuquerque.

Connie Mae said...

May you know that my prayers are with you! Our GOD is a GOD who has every little detail planned out. HE WILL CARRY YOU THROUGH, today, tomorrow and each day thereafter. He is your strength and comforter. Continue to rely on HIS strength and your road won't be so difficult.

New Mommy said...

* Best Angel Friends *
A beautiful little angel showed up to Heaven's gates
Confused and unknowing the plan that for him awaits.
Then another little angel walked up and took his hand
and said, "Please don't be sad you left, you're in the Promised Land."
"I'm glad to be here but I do not think I was to go,
Perhaps there was a mistake, for my mommy wanted me so."
The little greeting angel gave a sweet smile and said,
"My mommy wanted me too, but to Heaven I was led.
You see, we do not get to choose when on Earth it's time to go.
He gave us life, love and joy and a mother's womb to grow.
The Lord still needs new angels to guide them down on earth.
To watch over, comfort them, and help them see their worth."
"Is there still a way that I can sleep in my mommy's bed?"
The greeting angel grinned and said, "that luxury you'll keep.
I visit my mommy nightly and softly sing her to sleep."
The little angel replied, "then I think I'll like it here.
I'll visit my mommy nightly and weaken her pain and fears.
I love her and will keep her safe at night and in between,
And let her know with a sweet memory that she is still with me."
The greeting angel gave her new friend a big hug and said,
"Until our mommy's meet us here, let's be best angel friends."
"Okay," said the new angel, "that sounds good to me."
Then the angels sat and played keeping their mommy's in sight,
Humming the tunes to the song they would sing to their mommy's tonight...

Author Unknown

Anonymous said...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jPnPdh8oNdM

amanda said...

I have only visited your blog once-don't even know where you live, but If I could be there physically I would, but my heartfelt prayers will be sent your way. Please take a closer look at my photo and/or for a even closer look www.photographybyamanda.site.shutterfly.come

Amanda-a person you don't know and doesn't know you from Myrtle Beach, SC, but we do because we have the same Father.

erin said...

i've been looking at your pictures over and over, he is so beautiful. i'm praying for you all. you have been so strong through all of this. i'll continue to pray. thanks for keeping this updated!

Valerie said...

Your faith and strength are such inspirations. Thank you for sharing this journey with us. I will be holding you, your husband, and your precious, beautiful little boy in my heart, praying for you always.

Anonymous said...

Happy 1 week birthday Isaac!!! Thinking of you and your family today

Anonymous said...

Stacy,
Thank you for sharing sweet Isaac with us. What a beautiful little boy he is and wonderful parents you are. You are continually in my prayers.
Victoria
PA

Denise said...

from a stranger in MN. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. I admire your strong faith and positive outlook. God bless you and your little angel.

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry for your loss! Isaac is such a beautiful little boy, who is a blessing to so many! He is now forever in the arms of our Almighty God! Thanks for all your encouragement. You really are such a strong woman of God! Here is a vs. that I have been really focusing on lately and thought it might help you.
John 14:27 "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."
You will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers! Much love!

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Valerie said...

Stacy,

I can't begin to imagine your pain, but you put it so eloquently in all of your posts. I think of you often and pray that God keeps you and your family close to Him.

Val
(valkaz)