Friday, October 3, 2008

Pictures

Yesterday Spencer and I had our final ultrasound before Tuesday. I was really hoping that 1- We'd get the ultrasound tech who always seems to manage to get great pictures of Isaac, and 2- that Isaac would turn his little face so we could see it. We were blessed by both of these things at yesterday's appointment.

I couldn't believe how big Isaac has gotten. Granted, I am carrying him around and so in some ways I do know, but to see his face and how it looks like such a real person with fully developed features, chubby cheeks, and even a little sense of humor was just amazing. I know I will be even more amazed on Tuesday.

In this first one I love just how chubby his little cheeks are...


In this one, he is sucking his fist. He kept trying to put his whole hand in his mouth. I know that's not too clear in the picture, but it was pretty obvious on the screen.

Spencer and I both really like this one... and we decided pretty quickly that he has my nose and Spencer's lips.


This last one is a little blurry, but I love the little fishy face he's making. A few people have told us that it looks like he's puckering up to give us a kiss!


I can't wait to hold him and just stare at his little sweet face for real.

Thank you for continuing to pray for us as Tuesday approaches. Please pray that we're able to enjoy this weekend together as a family and that we are able to make that time special. We're a little limited in things we can do, because I am supposed to be taking it really easy since I am still having pretty consistent braxton hicks contractions despite the terbutaline. Please also pray that we would just be enveloped by God's perfect peace... I know that nothing else can calm the fear, anxiety, and anticipation of the upcoming days. Please pray that amidst the sadness, we would still be able to experience the joy of meeting your first child for the first time. And please don't stop asking for a miracle; we know it's not too late.

45 comments:

The Hulocks said...

Stacy -
I have been following your blog for a little while now. I am friends with Lauren (Norrah's mom) and she showed it to me. I just want you to know that you are in my thoughts and prayers as Tuesday approaches. I pray that God will give you peace and rest and that you will be able to fully enjoy every minute that you have with sweet little Isaac. Your walk through this has been an awesome testimony of faith. Thank you for being so honest and revealing! May God bless you!
Take care -
Danielle

Anonymous said...

My husband and I just started to follow your blog about a month ago. We both check it every day. We too are so anxious for next week and are praying for a miracle. You are an amazing woman and Issac is so lucky. All the best.

pollykinz said...

You and Spencer and Isaac continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. Your strength is so amazing and inspiring, I pray for your continued strength and peace in these next difficult days.

Jessica mommy to Alex/ RTS said...

Thinking of you.

Kristi said...

I started following your blog last week, and I've been praying for you and baby Isaac since then! I'm praying for a miracle, and for you to have peace and comfort during this time.

Erin said...

I have been following your blog for a little while now, thank you so much for sharing your journey with us an precious pictures of Issac. He is beautiful. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. May God bring you your miracle we are all hoping for.

God Bless- you are an amazing woman and mother.

Jess said...

I have been following your blogs since my friend Kristen showed them to me, I am praying for a miracle on Tuesday.
What beautiful pictures you have of your wonderful son.

Meg said...

I am praying for you!

asplashofsunshine said...

I'll bet you would love to keep that ultrasound machine permanently attached to your tummy to watch him all day long. He is such a handsome little man. Prayers are swirling all around the world for your adorable family. Enjoy putting your hands on our tummy for the next few days, until you can put your kisses on his cheeks on tuesday. Thinking of you...

The Fabulous Ms. Beth said...

Lots of prayers are being sent your way. I wish you peace as you approach his birth day. God Bless!

Courtney said...

My sister (Chelsie; Nadia's Mom) who met you on benotafraid ask for prayers for you. I have spent my morning reading all the way from you very first post and plan to do the same with your letters to Isaac. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. I know this is such a hard time and at the same time a blessing for you all. You will be in my prayers tonight and always. Thank you for sharing your story.

Christa said...

Isaac is beautiful! I will be thinking of you this weekend and the days to come.

~cpsocal

Anna said...

You are TRULY an inspiration to everyone. We are and will continue to pray for a miracle. God bless you

Lindsay Barr said...

I am in awe at your story. I know that God wanted me to see this. Last September 29th, my baby Zoe was born via emergency C-section, due to a completly ruptured placenta. She lived 19 days and I chose to take her off life support and hand her to Jesus.
I know this sounds like a bummer, and I in NO way want to make your situation any harder, BUT, God allowed her to take her leave in the most beautiful and peaceful way. The anguish came in the days ahead, but the part I absolutely was terrified of,Jesus carried me through it. When her heart stopped there was a thunder that took all 8 people in the room's breath away, and lightening struck in the hospital parking lot...lighting up the room. As we began to cry and say the last goodbyes, it began to pour down rain. It's like God was weeping too. It was so comforting not to have to walk outside to a beautiful day without my daughter. God knows how to comfort his children, and he chooses to do so.
I have no idea what will happen on October 7th, and I too am praying for a miracle. I do know that God will comfort you the best way for you. He knows what to do to keep YOU going, and keep YOU at peace. He will reveal himself in a glorious way.
You keep your chin up. Oh, and just a suggestion, try to buy one of those little kits that take a mold and cast of your child's feet and/or hands. A nusre in the N.I.C.U. made a mold of Zoe's foot for me. It's very comforting to be able to go back and see a replica of my Zoe's foot. It's my favorite reminder....
I hope you are comforted in some way by this tiny notion. I have been following your story for about a month now (silently, obviously) but this morning God wouldn't let me be silent. I guess so that you would know that God will have you in his hands, and it's such a place of peace and comfort. I pray for your weary soul to get some rest....

Taylor said...

My sixth grade boys at Montrose Christian (I lead their homeroom and devotions) take turns praying for baby Isaac every day. A couple of them come up to me regularly and ask, "How is baby Isaac?" Today I showed them his picture and they all said that Isaac is very cute. These young men love your son!
Love, Taylor

Anonymous said...

Lifting up prayers for all of you!!!

Anne said...

I don't know you, but I just wanted to say that i am inspired by your faith. I can only hope that if i am ever faced with a situattion like yours i could hold on to my faith as much as you have...

You truly know who God is and where you are with him..

I am a labor and delivery RN and i have been with families who delivered babies who did not or were not going to live...and God is the only One who wll carry you.

I admire you, and your husband. I am praying for a miracle.

secret sister said...

Isaac is so precious! Those photos from the ultrasound will always be a treasure for you; how special this will be. Modern medicine has done so much for the mothers (and fathers!) of nowadays. These things were not available when I gave birth to my children. All we "older" mothers have are our memories. The Lord has allowed these memories to stay fresh in my mind; just like giving birth was yesterday instead of 38 years ago. Trust in the Lord! My prayers will continue for you and your family.

Lisa Ohland said...

Stacy,
I, too, have been following your blog and your letters to Isaac for quite some time now. I am brought to tears often - thru your pain, your strength, your courage, and your story. So many of us are praying for you, Spencer and your precious son Isaac. God Bless you and your family in the days, weeks, months and years to come.
You will see your beautiful son's face on Tuesday, and he will feel the incredible love of his wonderful parents. You are truly an amazing woman and Isaac's story will continue to change lives every single day.
With love,
Lisa

Mrs.Rotty said...

As scary as it is i can't wait for tuesday. i know everything will go amazing! i'm so excited for you.

isaac looks perfect!

you're in my constant prayers and thoughts

Kylee said...

I don't know you, but have been following your blog for a couple weeks.

I wanted to let you know that I have been praying and will continue to pray. I am so touched by the love you have for Isaac, and the love for our Lord. I am in awe of the way you have displayed the love of Christ through this incredibly difficult time. You have ministered to so many people through the words you share on this blog.

Praying for a miracle!

~Kylee

KAL071203 said...

Issac is absolutly beautiful! You and spencer and Issac are in our thoughts and prayers!

Lauren said...

Stacy -

He is a cutie. Norrah says that God must do a miracle and heal Isaac because she likes him! :) We are praying for you and seeking God to amaze us all on Tuesday.

Nestie Becoming_untied said...

Continuing prayers for you all!

Robin said...

He's beautiful. Still praying...

Just Me said...

Beautiful pictures! Praying for you.

Take care.
Amanda

Jess said...

You have been so inspiring Stacy and I wish the best for you, Spencer, & Issac! You will be in my prayers!!!

"We must be ever thankful for small miracles, and ever hopeful for receiving greater ones."

Anonymous said...

God bless you, your husband and Issac. I have a cousing going through something very similar, she is being induced on October 13th. I am praying for all of you

Denise said...

I have been following your blog from the beginning and am sending all my love, thoughts and prayers to you, Spencer and Isaac. Those ultrasound photos will always be a reminder of how perfect your son is, and how at peace he is in your care. You and Spencer truly are amazing parents, to the most amazing little boy. I will continue to pray for a miracle, and that your faith will carry you through whatever lies ahead.

Anonymous said...

I don't know you or your husband but I want to say that I've been following your blog and you both are amazing people. I am floored by both of you and you are in my prayers and thoughts.

Taylor said...

I am praying for you daily. What beautiful pictures!

~Taylor

Anonymous said...

Stacy,
I actually knew you in elementary and middle school. I found your blog through the nest. Please know that you, Spencer, and Isaac are in my thoughts and prayers. I had a little boy this summer and we pray for you and baby Isaac all the time. I tell him about Isaac and how big he is getting. Your story has helped me to reconnect to God, a relationship that at times has been missing from life. You and Isaac have also helped me to appreciate every second I have with my little boy, even when he is screaming his head off. I think of how you would give anything for that moment (and I truly hope you have those moments with Isaac). I don't know what will happen for you next week, but I pray that you, Spencer, and Isaac are all strong. I am praying for a miracle. You are an amazing woman and even more amazing mother.

Kendra S-L said...

God knew Isaac before He formed him in your womb and God has a plan, dear one! Enjoy this last weekend before you meet your precious son. Please know of the prayers of a mommy in Boston.

Jaci said...

I have been following your blog, but I dont know if I ever have commented. I will pray for your family. I will pray for a miracle. I hope Tuesday goes well when you meet Baby Isaac.

Anonymous said...

He is absolutley beautiful!!! I am sure he will be more so when you see him in person, if thats possible!

Anonymous said...

Stacy, your post today reminded me what we prayed for for your family today in Bible study--peace. Peace that surpasses everything else. I think of you every day now. Tonight, while putting Mario to bed, I thought and prayed aloud for you. I want so much that every moment, all the moments, however short or long, you have with Isaac be filled with peace, love, harmony, joy. "Above all, clothe yourselves with love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony". How well you have done this, and I pray during these next days you will have love and harmony. Much love, Jill

Tif said...

Stacy~
I found your blog several weeks ago and have been drawn back daily to join your journey. Your Isaac is ao sweet and precious. Your faith in Him will be such an inspiration to so many. I'm praying that you have a peaceful weekend and are able to rest well. I will be praying on Tuesday that your time with Isaac is sacred. Thank you for opening your heart to so many.

"...in all these things we are more conquerors through Him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." Romans 8:37-39

~Tiffany

Cate said...

I am just amazed by your strength and love. This story is incredibly moving and inspirational. Thank you so much for sharing everything you are going through. You, Spencer, and Isaac will be in my thoughts all weekend and next week when you get to meet him!

Valerie said...

Sending you lots of love and prayers, Stacy. I will be thinking of you, Spencer, and Isaac on Tuesday and praying that you get a miracle.

livvielo said...

I'm thinking of the three of you.

Laura said...

Praying for all of you this weekend...sweet memories made with Spencer and Isaac. Praying for a miracle and the gift of time. Sending you love.

May the Lord bless you and keep you, may He make His face shine upon you and give you peace.

xoxo

Sharleen said...

Stacy,
Continued prayers for you, Spencer and Isaac. I pray that on Tuesday you all feel the peace that only Jesus can bring. You're right, it's not too late for a miracle! Please Lord!

Love Sharleen

AngelsAmid said...

I'm praying every day for God's peace and miracle for you and little Isaac. Everyday... (hugs) you're always in my thoughts

captain said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I can't even beging to imagine what you are going through. My heart breaks for you. May you take comfort in knowing that he did not suffer. I admire your courage and your positive way of dealing with this tragedy. I wish you peace, comfort and healing. I will keep you in my prayers.

Anonymous said...

There is a website that you should know about, it is www.belovedhearts.com It is a website where you can remember Isaac and write and share poems to him. There is a lot that you can do in Isaac's honor. May god bless you and guide you in your time of need.