Saturday

Today has been a good day.

Last night Spencer and I were able to watch his long-time friend Dave's high school football team play against a team near us (Dave is the head coach... not one of the players). Typically, we try to get to a couple of Dave's games each year down in Salisbury, but this year it doesn't seem if that will work out too well. It was nice to be able to get to see them play, and to "take" Isaac to his first live football game. I think he liked the marching band... particularly the drum line. He got a little excited when the drummers were playing!

We had a pretty lazy morning this morning, and decided to go for a picnic lunch this afternoon. It seemed as if all of Urbana was in the same Subway at the same time when we went to pick up lunch. We found a great park that we hadn't been to before that had some picnic tables right near the Monocacy River. The weather was perfect, sunny and warm with a gentle breeze. It was nice to just be outside for a while enjoying each other, Isaac's kicks and wiggles, and the beauty and serenity that surrounded us.

I am grateful for the sense of peace that God has granted me so far this weekend. My heart is of course still very heavy, and yes, there have obviously been tears. It has been hard to walk in the tension of feeling like there are so many things I want to do with Isaac before our time is up, and to balance that with just slowing down and "being" with him. It has also been hard to balance the desire to still continue to be hopeful of what God could still do with the need to prepare myself for loss. But underneath it all, there is a sense of calm rather than restlessness; and I know that that kind of peace only comes from Him alone.

We are truly grateful for your continued words of encouragement and your prayers. We need them, and we treasure them.