Saturday, October 4, 2008

Saturday

Today has been a good day.

Last night Spencer and I were able to watch his long-time friend Dave's high school football team play against a team near us (Dave is the head coach... not one of the players). Typically, we try to get to a couple of Dave's games each year down in Salisbury, but this year it doesn't seem if that will work out too well. It was nice to be able to get to see them play, and to "take" Isaac to his first live football game. I think he liked the marching band... particularly the drum line. He got a little excited when the drummers were playing!

We had a pretty lazy morning this morning, and decided to go for a picnic lunch this afternoon. It seemed as if all of Urbana was in the same Subway at the same time when we went to pick up lunch. We found a great park that we hadn't been to before that had some picnic tables right near the Monocacy River. The weather was perfect, sunny and warm with a gentle breeze. It was nice to just be outside for a while enjoying each other, Isaac's kicks and wiggles, and the beauty and serenity that surrounded us.

I am grateful for the sense of peace that God has granted me so far this weekend. My heart is of course still very heavy, and yes, there have obviously been tears. It has been hard to walk in the tension of feeling like there are so many things I want to do with Isaac before our time is up, and to balance that with just slowing down and "being" with him. It has also been hard to balance the desire to still continue to be hopeful of what God could still do with the need to prepare myself for loss. But underneath it all, there is a sense of calm rather than restlessness; and I know that that kind of peace only comes from Him alone.

We are truly grateful for your continued words of encouragement and your prayers. We need them, and we treasure them.

10 comments:

The Titsworth Family said...

Hi,

I've been following your story for a couple of months now and I want you to know that your family has been in my prayers. I've been so nervous and worried, but you've been so strong it amazes me. Just know that I will continue to think and pray for you over this weekend and on Tuesday. Miracles do happen! Love, The Titsworth Family

mom2my4boys said...

Dear Stacy, Spencer and Sweet Baby Isaac,

I have been praying for your family. And I pray you are enveloped in joy, peace, and contentment when you meet your son. God chose you to be Isaac's Mom and Dad and I know God and Isaac both are proud you! You have been such loving parents and have given God all the glory. I just want you to know that Isaac has brought a family with four young boys, in Boise, Idaho a bit closer to the Lord because of your testimony. May God Bless you and keep you close always!
Julie Tallman and family

Pete, Alison and Charlie said...

I'm so glad you're having such a lovely weekend. I know it sounds daft because I've never met you, but everytime I've heard the date with 'October' in it for the past few days, I've thought of you. Although it's been six years since my son Will was born, I remember so vividly those precious few days before he arrived - like you say, trying to fit in so many things, while finding time just to 'be'. We even went to the airport the day before my c-section so he could 'feel' the vibrations as the planes took off! Anyway, I won't ramble on - I just wanted to let you know that a fellow mum over here in the cold, rainy UK, is thinking of you more than you'd believe, and every time you pop into my thoughts, I say another little prayer that you'll be given peace and serenity as you wait to meet your little man. With lots of love X

Stephanie said...

I think of you so often. You are (all 3) so precious.
I know the angels are lining up for their orders in welcoming Isaac into this world.
He is so loved and his life so powerful.
Praying in Tennessee.

Jennifer Currey said...

I find my self in tears as you approach Tuesday. I am glad that you have a sense of peace right now. Isaac is a wonderful, precious, beautiful little boy and he is lucky to have such wonderful parents.

Anonymous said...

Stacy&Spencer,

I know that you don't know me, but I want you to know that I think of you guys often. I will continue to pray for you and baby Isaac. I pray that God brings you whatever you need during this rough time. You have inspired me to take a closer look at my faith and relationship with god during my own loss (m/c. May God bless you and keep you close to his heart.

THE DARLSON'S said...

I came across your blog from a friends blog. I have been following your story for a month or two. I know it is only through God's peace you are bearing such a struggle. Your faith is inspirational. I am thinking of you and praying for you this weekend and through out the next week. I pray for God's peace to continue to be with you, for wisdom as the Dr.'s care for you and Isaac and most of all that your time with Isaac to be so sweet.

Prayers from MS,

Meghan

Krystal said...

Praying for blessings, strength, peace, and hope for all of you and your loved ones.

Monica @ Writer Chic said...

You were heavy on my heart yesterday, as we drove around Nashville. You were being fervently prayed for -- I'm glad that you had a day of enjoyment and peace with your boys.

Jessica said...

i'm praying earnestly for a miracle for your sweet family!